Not For A Reward

The Universe is on my side is what I'm told
Day after day I'm still alive enough to behold
offerings of a generous nature
from all of my fellow creatures of old
Even in my ilk I can take pride
People surprise me when their giving is bold
It makes me feel a bit more safe
to get embraced by some wonderful souls
At one time I had made the ablution
but not yet the sacrifice
I had to pick a side and carry the flame
and in no one could I truly confide
The only solution was to strengthen my foothold
in the work of all to the Lord
I tried never to keep score or ask what for
To give no thought of reward
not even knowing if I would make
my way out of the flood
I believe it's called serving the servant
To: Nicole, With Love: The Universe
Just enough to break my fall
A little more strength to scale the wall
I praise You, Universe, with my blazing, broken heart
First we're together, then we're apart
Father Time's receding waves come back to crash
and divine is the art of the narrow escape
of the pit and the pendulum
Something like torture and transmigration
Am I coming or going as we return to this forever?
I can't stand the anticipation